Some Changes....

This is probably one of the hardest updates to my blog that I have ever made!  Perhaps that is why I have been postponing it for so long....yes, there have been some more changes in our family.  In fact, the day of my last post, we had a very devastating change in our family.  It was Zachary's birthday that day and we were at church when I received a call that Memaw had passed away.  She had been in pretty bad condition since her fall in March 2010.  Yet there were times that when our hope would grow stronger, believing that she was going to get better and get home!  However, that never happened.  I believe in my heart that the day when Pawpaw passed away was the day that Memaw gave up hope of getting better.  She had lost the love of her life and although she loved her family, her soul mate was gone and she wanted to be with him!  It was so upsetting for Ron, the boys and myself, not to mention the rest of the Smith family.  I wanted to write a poem in her memory since I wrote one for Pawpaw; however, words have not come to me to express what she meant to me.  Even as I write this update, tears are streaming down my face for my precious Memaw.  Yes, she was Ron's grandmother...but she was more like my grandmother than Ron's.  There wasn't anything I couldn't talk to her about!  Before her fall, she and I would talk to each other at least every other day, if not everyday!  And oh, how I miss those talks!  There are times even now that I catch myself picking up the phone to ask Memaws' advice about a situation, or ask her how to cook something, or just to chat about my day!  I will forever miss her and never, ever forget her! I will update more about our lives soon...and hopefully soon I can write my own little memorial to Memaw.  It will come, but I think my heart and my head still need some more time....until then I will relive my fond memories of my time with her!